♥ ; All that you need to know..
& when you walked away, I count the steps that you take..♥
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
The things that happened right now is really hurting everyone's feeling. I just feel like backing off from all this, so that no parties are gonna be hurt ( I guess.. ). I am sorry, Sufi, I am sorry , ila.. Everything seems to mess up somehow.. I'm falling down slowly without any hands reaching ..
Everyone can't run away from mistakes. This is life that god want us to face. I admit I do feel sad knowing the truth. But the truth always makes a lesson for us to learn. I can't deny that my heart was breaking apart, it cracked and fall apart. But dearest Sufi , I'm glad enough that you dare to pick up the pieces back together. I just couldn't see that 'bad' side of you and consider it much. After everything she have said about you to me, things that you've done behind me, I still can't figure out why you mean so much to me. I never wanted to think about things that happen. Cause it will make my tears fall down.. All I wanted was you, to wipe away this tears and put your whole heart onto what you really want ..
I can't deny that I felt so down. It feels like I just lost a part of me. Like losing someone you really love/need/care/want/and many many more. I don't want it to be this way. No matter what happen, I'll still leave it to you. You are wise enough to think which is right, and which is wrong. I wanna give you the time that you need. Just sit down, and think about it. Tell yourself that you are going to be fine. Believe in yourself, dear. What I can do now is just to support you and still be there for you whenever you need me..
I need you, cause I love you. I want you, cause you are someone, that I wanna be with till the end of my life. I apologies if things always go wrong between us. But you know what's the reason. I myself doesn't wanna be that way. I myself don't want to react harshly towards you. I don't want to see you fall down. I still wanna reach my hands for you. I still wanna be there for you. I still want to see you success in your upcoming life and future. I know you need time to think about it. Take all the time you need. But please don't make it so long. It's not only you suffers, we, me and ila, we suffers a lot too..
I know it's hard to make a choice. I feel you. But you've gotta feel me too dear.. Sigh.. I miss being us.. I miss you so much .. But I just don't feel like seeing you .. Cause, I'm scared if I will broke down and cry.. I hope you feel me..
I love you, Muhammad Sufi.. I really do ..
♥ 3:04 PM,
Sitting Down Reminiscing
The
Melancholy Feelings
And The Agony Heart.
