♥ ; Let me write my own love story.
& when you walked away, I count the steps that you take..♥
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
The problems that suddenly occurs seems to make me heartache bits by bits. I wonder why dad got so angry when he doesn't allow me do everything I wanted. Sigh.
Today school starts at 8am. But I am still here, in my bedroom. I don't feel like going anywhere, but to just lay down in my bed and to stop thinking about anything. Woke up this morning telling mum I am not going to follow along. Mum was a little angry and pissed off cause she doesn't know what to say to nenek if I don't go.
Sigh, I just don't feel go. I just feel so down. Hmm.
Yesterday went back a little bit late. After school, went to have dinner with dear. As usual, dear will have he's favourite dish, while me, I had tom yam soup noodle. We talked a lot and day by day, i just knew that this love is going so strong. hahs. Dear sent me to bus stop and went off home. Reached home around 9. Had a bath, changed and went to Admiralty to print pictures.
Made a card for abang cause he is going to serve NS. And then, off to sleep.
Going to school no matter what, later. Yesterday had a little misunderstandings between me and him. Sigh. Hope everything's gonna be fine soon.
Anyway, something have been bothering me so much. So much that I have to stop and take a deep breath and let go of it. This relationship of mine have been going on for over 1 month. Nothing had been bothering us much accept for this hatred feeling from us to the third party. For the first few weeks it has been so much for me and him to face whatever obstacles that get along our way. Getting to know the real him, he's background, family, past and also how to feel him, deeply, inside out and just to understand him. By meeting him everyday is school gaves me the urge to know him more and just to smile everyday when I sees him. Being so happy that friends, teachers and our own friends could accept our relationship and even support it.Not to mention our family too. We really appreciate the people around us who have been supporting our relationship. Once again, thanks to all friends who have been there for us and supporting us. (:
Somehow, someone have dragged herself to my attention. Well, yeah. It must be a great fall, having to know someone you really love, broke up with you and moved on after 20 days of the split. I think the conference between me, bf and her is such a waste. I don't know should I look down on you or just pretend that your words arent't true? Let me tell out too. I broke up with my ex and moved on after 20 days too. Funny? But god is the one who set us up. So you can't blame anyone if you were the one who feel hurt.
So let's just say you were in my place. Take the experience on your last relationship with him. I am so sure you know what I mean. So tell, is that sacrifices that you're doing? I can't deny that I respect you as he's ex. But if into this situation, where by you keep on trying to get he's attention and make him feel guilty by saying to him that you still love him and need him by your side, is just wasting your time.
I know it's hurting, but as a girlfriend, I myself have the right to stand up for my own feelings. It has been over 1 month now. I tried to be patient. If you think it's not fair for you, how about me? Do you think it's fair for me too?
You told me, you are over it. YOU told me that you and him are just FRIENDS now. So what's up with those messages you sent him?
"ILY,IMY(: Muah!"
Not to mention all the previous messages you have sent him too.
Asking him out when you know he have a girlfriend. Calling his phone and wake him up in the morning? I am his girlfriend now. The person to do all those job is me. I am taking over your place. Im sorry if I am harsh, but I don't wanna feel that I am a bad girlfriend, by asking other girls to do my job. Sigh.
Come on, you are a woman now, much older than me. Why must you keep on the grudge? The feeling? Because you think it's not fair for you? You know know it's gonna hurt you, but you yourself are the one who is hurting your ownself.
To love someone is to learn how to let go. And feel the happiness just to know that someone you love is striving for his own happiness. Yes, I might not be the person who could make him change so much, but I am glad that I have the confident to change him. To make him and turn him into a better man one day.
I know you're gonna be pissed off after reading this. Or maybe, you'll tell over your friends what you are feeling right now. You know what? I've got a lot to write about you. But I just wanna save my empty spaces about my life, not about you. Look at yourself now. Plenty of guys around your waist. Now find the perfect one that suits with you. You said that "its all yours". Yes, he is all mine now. I'm not gonna let go of him to you, that easily.
Dear, I hope you're not angry on what ever words I've trown to her. But thanks for allowing me to express out my feelings. I know you are not at fault. I trust you. Thanks for being honest although all this time you're trying hard not to hurt me and let me know about her. But I appreciate that you are honest to me and I am glad, you still pick me, instead of her.
I love you, and will always do. (:
♥ 8:03 AM,
Sitting Down Reminiscing
The
Melancholy Feelings
And The Agony Heart.
The problems that suddenly occurs seems to make me heartache bits by bits. I wonder why dad got so angry when he doesn't allow me do everything I wanted. Sigh.
Sigh, I just don't feel go. I just feel so down. Hmm.
Anyway, something have been bothering me so much. So much that I have to stop and take a deep breath and let go of it. This relationship of mine have been going on for over 1 month. Nothing had been bothering us much accept for this hatred feeling from us to the third party. For the first few weeks it has been so much for me and him to face whatever obstacles that get along our way. Getting to know the real him, he's background, family, past and also how to feel him, deeply, inside out and just to understand him. By meeting him everyday is school gaves me the urge to know him more and just to smile everyday when I sees him. Being so happy that friends, teachers and our own friends could accept our relationship and even support it.Not to mention our family too. We really appreciate the people around us who have been supporting our relationship. Once again, thanks to all friends who have been there for us and supporting us. (:
Somehow, someone have dragged herself to my attention. Well, yeah. It must be a great fall, having to know someone you really love, broke up with you and moved on after 20 days of the split. I think the conference between me, bf and her is such a waste. I don't know should I look down on you or just pretend that your words arent't true? Let me tell out too. I broke up with my ex and moved on after 20 days too. Funny? But god is the one who set us up. So you can't blame anyone if you were the one who feel hurt.