& when you walked away, I count the steps that you take..♥
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Hello there bloggers. :)
So today, I'll be leaving once mum reached home. Means, at around 6pm ( i think) , I'll be already out there going for my holidays. I know, time flies too fast right? Sigh. And I hope time would fly very fast too when I'm at there.
Currently I'm just listening to 'you were never sorry - tailor swift'. This song was sent by Razmilsyah yesterday. Haha. Thanks eh.. Semalam view blog abeh tak tag? Haha. I got you this time Syah.
Diary that was given by dear. It's an important book ever , I tell you. *smacks your face if you take it away.* HAHA. ( k nie mcm zaman dulu2 nyer way. Haha. wtv )
So anyway,I've packed things up. But it feels like I don't feel like going. =[ I feel there's something wrong around me and it feels uneasy. You know, that 'worried' feeling and 'sigh' feeling? Hermm.. Nevermine, just hope for things are gonna be fine. Yesterday went to Cik Mona's place. I didn't eat not because of I'm not hugry. I didn't eat because I was having a stomach ache and I swear it hurts more to think about things tak perlu di dapat tahu cause it just makes me feel worst. Sigh. But like I say, although I look weak, there's still someone in me, showing how strong I am. And if you could not see it, then never think about it. I'm flattered that a friend of mine think's I'm pretty amazing to think of ways and dare to make things go the other way round. I'm already glad that I could smile this days. I don't wanna destroy this feelings by negative thoughts and feelings knowing some things that happen. Cause I know god's always there watching and saving people who knows that they aren't wrong. :)
Everything you do, just remember, people around you might notice. Whatever you did, just remember, if it's bad, people will say, but if it's not, don't worry, everything's gonna be find. If you think this life's a misery and if you keep on lying to urself, you will end up no where. Have a faith in your self and endure the future. How pain it brings and how hard you struggle, everything you do now could bring the matter in future. If you are confident that this is what you ever wanted in life, make sure that it will be succeeded. People will lose trust and confindence in you if you just brought yourself to the wrong path. Give yourself a pad on the back if the life you wanted had really happened. And smile, thinking how silly you could be back then. Everything you do, have the consequences. Although how you will try to hide your mistakes, it could be only seen by your love once. Believe in yourself. :)
As for me, I've got a very bad life in the past, my sec 1s and sec 2s days. Now when I'm finally going seventeen, I realize how silly I could be. Seeing myself in a very funny way. Friends changed, life goes on. My happiness was when I could change. Thanks to my babes. Knowing them had made me a better person. I'm glad to be their friend. And this 3 yrs with 5 or infact 6 peopl in this friendship, is really something unbelievable. So far we don't have any conflicts between each other. I am glad that life's unpredictable and life is just like a story line that you need to fill in with letters to complete it. Glad that life is too big to gudge.
Yesterday when I was out there with my family, suddenly I've an urge to call boyfriend. So when I call him, he thought that I'm worried if he actually go out with someone else. Actually it's not that way dear. I trust you and what I hope is that the trust is gonnabe made used properly. What a surprise when you gave that phone to your mum. Hello dear? You make me shock, once again. Suke sangat eh kasi I terkejot-terkejot? Hahaha. He's mum goes like ' Sama-sama risaukan..' Hahaha.He's mum is really friendly and a great mum indeed. After knowing a least a little story of his mum, it just make my bulu roma naik because it's really unbelievable on how much she did and never had a chance to give up even a breath just to see her son is up there doing so well. I'm greatful that thing's happen now are so hippie dippie happily gently. If this is the life that I'm gonna be sharing with, I would open my hands wide to give the warmest welcome, to my life. ;)
Currently abang and ayah just reached home. Dad bought back a lot of pepsi drinks. HEHE. *kening naek2*. Yesterday slept at around 5am. Was talking on the phone with dear that long? Haha. Yeah, I actually didn't really feel that sleepy, but I must sleep cause I've gotta pack things up and clean up home before leaving. See like now,mum wake me up and now I'm having a headache. =.= Dear is not feeling well since yesterday night. It must be the air-con he used. Too call eh dear? Kesian..Get well soon k sayang. Alah I'm sure you're gonna get well. Hahaha. Hope that he'll spend his time at home today for me. Cause I don't wanna go without being happy. Can't wait to meet granny! I miss granny a lot!! Haha.
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Alrighty, that's all. Gonna miss my love once in singapore. Especially Dear Sufi, Lenny, Eerah, Andie, Remy and MORE MORE MORE. =[ For my dear Sufi, I'm gonna miss you a lot. Hope that things are getting better in yourself. And I hope you won't think much when I'm gone. Don't ever make trouble in yourself and try as much as you can, to make your mum happy and ofcause, make yourself feel better than ever. I give you the trust in me. I hope you'll never break the trust. And I believe, you won't, right dear? I hope life is unpredictable that you have to make sure that everything goes well. Trust me, whatever you do. God's watching. As long as you still pray and never do unnecessary things, god is always there to help you. Ok b? hahaha. Love you, and will always love you even if I am gone from here. :) Lenny, glad everything is okay now. Hope everything that happen, is a lesson for you to learn. Hee. You get what I mean. About you and her. :) Eerah ! You are gonna be missed! I gonna miss your jokes and all. =[ Sigh. Andie? Hahs. Thanks for all the support you gave although you don't even really know any stories. But glad that you care. Hee. Meet you and Lenny soon okay~! As for Remy, I hope everything's gonna be fine for him. Being on the same boat with you was fun. But life is too unpredictable. I'm just lucky that I could move myself forward before you. Be patient, she just need more time. I'm sure you're strong enough right. Just smile to your fullest whenever you still can. You, made me realize not to make things worst at the edge of love. I hope you realize what ever I've done for my relationship had made me smilling right now. And I hope you will do the same and never give up as long as you still love her. You can do it ! If Hayry (your twin) could be my diary, I could be your diart and be a listener. Have a strong heart. Don't be weak. Haha. :) And I know you are not. :D
Caloh Beteh bebeh!
Dear sent me this song. Hehe. :)
Seems like yesterday we used to rock the show I laced the track, you locked the flow So far from hangin on the block for dough Notorious, they got to know that Life aint always what it seem to be (uh-uh) Words cant express what you mean to me Even though youre gone, we still a team Through your family, Ill fulfill your dream (thats right) In the future, cant wait to see If you open up the gates for me Reminisce some time, the night they took my friend (uh-huh) Try to black it out, but it plays again When its real, feelings hard to conceal Cant imagine all the pain I feel Give anything to hear half your breath (half your breath) I know you still living your life, after death
Chorus: faith evans
Every step I take, every move I make Every single day, every time I pray Ill be missing you Thinkin of the day, when you went away What a life to take, what a bond to break Ill be missing you
[puff] I miss you big
Verse two: puff daddy
Its kinda hard with you not around (yeah) Know you in heaven smilin down (eheh) Watchin us while we pray for you Every day we pray for you Til the day we meet again In my heart is where Ill keep you friend Memories give me the strength I need (uh-huh) to proceed Strength I need to believe My thoughts big I just cant define (cant define) Wish I could turn back the hands of time Us in the 6, shop for new clothes and kicks You and me taking flicks Makin hits, stages they receive you on I still cant believe youre gone (cant believe youre gone) Give anything to hear half your breath (half your breath) I know you still living youre life, after death
Chorus
[faith evans] somebody tell me why
Interlude: faith evans
On that morning When this life is over I know Ill see your face
Outro: 112
Every night I pray, every step I take Every move I make, every single day Every night I pray, every step I take [puff] every day that passes Every move I make, every single day [puff] is a day that I get closer [puff] to seeing you again Every night I pray, every step I take [puff] we miss you big... and we wont stop Every move I make, every single day [puff] cause we cant stop... thats right Every night I pray, every step I take Every move I make, every single day [puff] we miss you big *music fades out*
♥ 10:07 AM,
Sitting Down Reminiscing The
Melancholy Feelings And The Agony Heart.
