♥ Nurul Umirah ♥

♥ ; My all..

& when you walked away, I count the steps that you take..♥
Tuesday, May 5, 2009

My dad just finish berzikir .. It's so peaceful ehh.. Haha.. And he keep on singing this Hijjaz song. Hahaha.

Hello yaw peeps. Firstly, I wanna thank everyone that held their hands out and hold my back to make me feel calm. I've gotta thanks Eerah the most for never fail to be there for me. Thank you so much Eerah for always being there for me. For making me feel at ease whenever I feel so down and so low. You're the best companion and crap partner. Hahaha.. Just goodluck for your mid year exams and really good luck for your O'levels okay! Do your freaking best and make sure study hard! :D

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I nearly forgot. The one that is always there for me nowadays. Someone who is trying to be there for me here and then. Thanks so much to Effy aka Firdiyana. Like I said, as much friends as you can see, the once that looks happy always have the most unbearable moments. Thanks so much Effy for your care and concern in me. Just so you know, I'll always be there for you too! :))
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Oh not to forget about the others that have always been there for me. I know you guys don't know what's the story about, and I don't wish to tell cause I don't wanna make an embarrasement to anyone. So let it be me and him and those fate that god let us face. But I'm glad enough people around me cares so much. Thank you everyone. May god bless you and repay you guys with a good willing life. (:

Alright, Alright .. So anyway, today school was fun. Haha.. I'm plain lazy to write what happen. But what I can say is about NAPFA test. Hahaha. It's really boring that I can't play p.e. I was under examined again. Sigh. But nevermy! This asthma will go away somehow.. With god willing. Heh.

Guess what? Just now when I came home, I took a long shower until my dad reached home. I was listening to songs in the computer while my parents prepare for dinner. I was listening to the song "Perfect - Simple Plan" .. Haha. I've got no idea why, but, hahaha. It's funny. The starting was like "hey dad, look at me. Think back and talk to me ~" . Haha. Then I was like, I went to my dad and let him listen to my Mp3. And told him this.

Me : Ayah, tunggu jap. Nah dgr lagu nie. *putting one earpiece on his ear.
Dad : Asl?
Me : K, dengar tau lyric dier, Nanti Nurul nyanyi kan sekali.
Dad : Ok..
Me : *in my mind, boleh layan kan aku lagi! HAHAHA.*
Me : *When the song started,* Hey dad, look at me *holding his face to look at my face. Then continue to sing. And this is what happen.

Hey dad look at me
*holding his face to look at me*
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
*making that quetion mark face*
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
*my dad goes like "YES! You are always wasting your time"
But it hurts when you disapprove all along
*Then I was like .. Hahahhaa~*

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
*make the kening naik2 on my face to him*
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me
*then dad say "hey, I did okay! you don't anyhow say I never. I always did." .. =___="

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
*Make that sorry expression with the hands holding tight.*
I can't be perfect
*dad goes like, "uh'huh"
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

Hahaha. Then mum goes like, "ey da sudah, jom mkn". Hahahhaa. Dad was laughing all the way. I don't know why I did that myself. Hahaha. Kelakar seh biler teringat balik. Uat paisey jer. HAHA. =P But nevermy, atleast he knows that I like to make make joke out of every songs. Hahaha.

Something's wrong with me. My throat keeps making me feel like I wanna cough. And I feel like something is blocking my throat. I am not sure why, but it's really2 irritating.

Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

♥ 10:07 PM,

Sitting Down Reminiscing
The Melancholy Feelings
And The Agony Heart.