♥ ; This post, is for dearest Shila.
& when you walked away, I count the steps that you take..♥
Sunday, May 10, 2009
I know life have been a big blast for you. In the past, you fall in love with our classmate and starting to have a big great relationship with him. I am really happy for you cause I know you love him so much. But day by day, after school ended, life have been so miserable for you. You have been patient with what ever attitude he gave you and swallowing what ever shit he gave you. You're so strong and have been so patient in him. He gave you shits and you, took everything cause you know you love him so much. You gave a lot of surprises to him, you spend all your money for him, you make him like a prince, but does he ever realize it? Yet, he still went to another girl. A typical girl next door. Yarh, if he read this, he deserve to get a big vulgarity from me. Shila, you know, you seems to be holding everything in your hands and being so patient with your life with him. But you ended up leaving him, cause you are already falling down. He's up there, laughing at you. He's so cruel. I had never think he's so bad unless I read the messages he sent to you and knowing what he've done behind you. Shila, you are too soft to guys. You must wake up and believe in yourself.. But I'm glad that you made a move to leave him, yarh, at first, I was so.. sad, cause my bestfriend has just broke up. The hottest love ended with the coldest relationship. 10 months, being with him.. I am sad, but I know, you feel much more better that now you don't have to be bothering too much about him. Bet you, you still feel so pain looking at him with other girls right? But you know, He doesn't deserve someone like you. Someone that have given everything in love life.. He doesn't deserve that.. You deserve someone better..
Than. came a new guy in your relationship. Prolly looks like him. Yarh, I admit, the first look on him, I already know that you have fallen for him. Yeah, he heals your broken heart by making you smile and making you laugh all day. But did your broken heart heal? No.. But one day, you fall in love with him. You just want him for yourself cause you know that he means everything cause he is the one that could light up your days when down the road it's so dark and filthy. You went for him and love him. He fixed your broken heart and make sure that you are always alright, everyday. I am happy, to see you're happy with your new relationship. Never had come across my mind that he'll hurt you. Cause I've told him, not to make you feel miserable. And he said that he'll take care of you no matter what. But look at what he've done to you. Yarh, I know I've been thru a lot more than you. But this thing have gone big for you cause you've been thru it in the past. And it repeated again. Yarh, I was angry to see how that girl hold his hand. And if you were not strong, maybe you'll fall and slipped down to the lurch. But you know, you love him, that's why you've tried to be patient. Enough of your past that you're trying to forget. Sometimes, I just wish the guy that may be your dream guy, would just come by to your life and take away all those misery. If he loves you, he won't leave you to a jerk. And this time, he repeated what your ex have done. I am totally shagged towards what he've done to you. Yes, he says how much he love you. It's either he'll gain back your trust and your love back, of just let go of you. But trust me Shila, be patient. Life in relationship is always a big upside down. You need to pull him back to the right path. You need to wake him up from all this. Trust me. Yarh, I'm starting to despise him. But trust me. You need to make him feel that you need him, and he need you. I know he'll never stop going for you. Cause he's just like your ex. Who still running for you although he've got a new GF.. He'll be the same if you don't make it right.. Shila. No matter what I am always here for you alright. I know it's been really hurting you so much. You know my stories, take me as your example. Be strong although you can't. Be patient as long as you still can. When the time has come, everything will be alright. Trust me okay.. (:
This post is to show, how much a person like her have been traveling along a rusty path and still going forward to have a good life and smile on her face. I hope she'll be alright.. And shila, be strong .. Never give up .. This is relationship. It's not a relationship without ups and downs. No one is perfect. Everyone makes mistakes. Let the mistake be a lesson. But never put a grudge and make a karma. Cause that's not a way to hurt your love once..
Love, Umirah
♥ 8:27 PM,
Sitting Down Reminiscing
The
Melancholy Feelings
And The Agony Heart.
