& when you walked away, I count the steps that you take..♥
Thursday, October 1, 2009
It's 8pm already. I'm so tired, I swear. :(
I didn't get to sleep yesterday when I reached home. Because of some problems, it didn't let me sleep the whole night till the next morning. I showered at 5am and went out at 6am. Cab-ed to tampines and meet dear. He told me not to say anything until .... Haha.. He said he can't recognize that was me who come down from the taxi. Maybe it's because of my hair? Haha. Yes, I did something with my hair. Haha. Check out the pictures alright.
After that, we .. Heh, it's just for me to know for you not to find out. We had a some talk together before we went out to buy food for breakfast. Syafiq showered early in the morning. Haha. Sweet, just because of he knows I'm coming. So we went to buy food with him too. This two siblings ate Roti Prata Telur while I had Paper Masala Thosai. Syafiq keep on saying that their mum is showing off some furnitures in the house. We keep on laughing and laughing. He got hell lots to say ya know. Oh yes, hell lots! Trust me. Haha. This two boys made my morning though. But thanks dear, for making me smile once again.
That morning we had a long talk with each other. I'm happy enough that he could forgive me. Thanks so much dear. Thanks so much for letting out everything. For what ever reason is coming ahead, I won't make things worst. My mistake was a big one that I've done. Well, what was it? It was something that hurt his feelings, so deeply. But I'm glad that he could open up his heart to forgive me now after the whole day of meeting him. Last two days was our 9th monthsary. I hope we could celebrate it for the years ahead. I am glad for what you did for me this morning. I am touched. But I know you're hurt. And I'm really sorry Muhammad Sufi bin Rohaizad. I didn't mean to hurt your feelings. Whatever comes ahead was for us to learn. I'm grateful that it still rakes my heart for the heartache and the agony soul.
I won't give up. Cause for the whole 9months, and for the whole things that keep on hitting my way thru this love ship, really let me learn a lot. All those never-endings sadness was so much of true pain that makes me feel like I have no where to go. Why can't I let him go, or he let me go? Who can ever answer? Cause it's in god's hand. Well, the important thing now is, how hard is it for us to face without each other in our life. Don't ever ask why, cause only we know, that we can't live our life without this love thing. For how much you begged, or for how much you wanna destroy it, in the end, it will always come back to the true love. God will always save a love if there is two heart who need each other presence. Well, I believe there's always a reason why things happen this way.
You guys must be asking, what had been happening isn't it? Don't worry now. Our relationship is going to be okay. Insyaallah. Hope you guys would pray for us, will you guys?
I really hope what ever things that happened now is ending everything up. I'm scared if I really fell out of hand. Sigh. I'm scared if I've gotta face everything over again. Till then, we are still officially together. Only when things was so hard, we couldn't face it but the only way, was to pretend that we are not together. Why? Well, it's for us to know for you guys not to know. =)
Now that things are going worst, to prevent it from falling apart, was to tell how much we mean for each other. I'm gonna prove my part though. And for what ever he have let out to the people around him. Trust me, I am sorry for what I've done. And I'm happy he could forgive me now. For what ever things he have said to you guys. Trust me, this love will not end. WILL NOT. And I mean what I just said. We already have a good talk just now. And I guess it's time for us to wake up from the deepest pain and heal everything up.
When I say I won't give up, means, you better back off. I know what have been happening. And I started to look heavily about some people. As long as he still needs me in his life, I won't let him go out of hand. And I mean what I say. I really mean it.
___do you think he could be happy with me?___ Well, hope so..
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Yesterday I went home at around 1am in the morning. Was so exhausted. But I eventually had a great time with my family there. Came back to singapore with some good things. Especially my 8GB thumb drive! Hahaha! Followed by laptop's skin. And also my new hair! And not to forget somethings that was bought at KL. Mum bought me the purple One Drop perfume! And I can't wait to get it from mum. heh. Before going home, we went to Satay Kajang to eat family set. Which Mak Teh and family, Mak Busu and family, My Family and Nenek. Went there to eat. The bestest Satay! :DDDDDDD And we separated. :( Aqil was crying so deeply like as if he knows we won't meet again. I am very sad. 2months of having Aqil settling down in Singapore was a big memoir for me. Couldn't believe that he is now back home. :( I'm gonna miss him so much. Well, I've told you guys that I'm leaving the night I update my blog right? That was at Mak Busu's place. I thought Malaysia internet access was bad. But even Mak Busu's place have the shakes of the Tsunami affect, the internet access was still good! Haha. Sad thing that now Aqil is gone. :( Hope he still recognize me the months/years ahead when he grow up. I miss shouting at him, and he shouting at me back. =P And I miss making him shock out of a sudden blue. And I miss him for pushing my bed room door, to see if I'm in the bedroom or not. I miss Muhammad Aqil !!! D= Why is dad at back seat? Haha. Because Abang drove the car. It was kinda scary when it's at high way. He drove like 140km/h. Haha. And all the sides vehicle was Big Lorries! Can you guys imagine that? Hahaha. Why mum is not beside me? Cause I kan anak ayah. =P
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Last Friday on 25th, had a great fun with babes and dear. We went to Hari Raya. It's like babes reunion! To be added by that, Nadia Nadhira is back!!!!!! Haha. The 6 of us united. And if only Nabila is still here.. Sigh. I bet it would be marrier..
But it's okay, I'm lazy to elaborate about our day. But the best part was when we wanted to go home. Dear was there to accompany me the whole day. Can you imagine that? From that noon, he didn't complain about me asking him out to meet my babes either. I'm glad he wanted to go out with me. :D That night, we went to eat. And after that we have a long talk. I was glad to have the whole day with my love onces. My babes, and my own boyfriend. :)
We had the same colour. Haha. It's really the same right? :) Have you ever seen any couples with this colour before? I bet no right? Hahaks. :) Happy things always come, and better things was in our way. :D
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♥ 7:54 PM,
Sitting Down Reminiscing The
Melancholy Feelings And The Agony Heart.
And we separated. :( Aqil was crying so deeply like as if he knows we won't meet again. I am very sad. 2months of having Aqil settling down in Singapore was a big memoir for me. Couldn't believe that he is now back home. :( I'm gonna miss him so much. Well, I've told you guys that I'm leaving the night I update my blog right? That was at Mak Busu's place. I thought Malaysia internet access was bad. But even Mak Busu's place have the shakes of the Tsunami affect, the internet access was still good! Haha. Sad thing that now Aqil is gone. :( Hope he still recognize me the months/years ahead when he grow up. I miss shouting at him, and he shouting at me back. =P And I miss making him shock out of a sudden blue. And I miss him for pushing my bed room door, to see if I'm in the bedroom or not. I miss Muhammad Aqil !!! D=
Why is dad at back seat? Haha. Because Abang drove the car. It was kinda scary when it's at high way. He drove like 140km/h. Haha. And all the sides vehicle was Big Lorries! Can you guys imagine that? Hahaha. Why mum is not beside me? Cause I kan anak ayah. =P
Last Friday on 25th, had a great fun with babes and dear. We went to Hari Raya. It's like babes reunion! To be added by that, Nadia Nadhira is back!!!!!! Haha. The 6 of us united. And if only Nabila is still here.. Sigh. I bet it would be marrier..
